Quirky Feather: OUR JOURNEY TO HERE...

I'm about to get incredible mushy on all of you...so brace yourselves.

As I look over at my baby playing on the floor, it hits me hard that he's quickly turning into a little boy. It completely blows my mind how lucky we are to be living this wonderful life we have. I can't believe just 9 short months ago our little family started in such a whirlwind sort of way. I remember coming home from the hospital with my husband who couldn't walk and we didn't have answers on how long he'd be in a wheelchair or if he'd ever get to have full mobility in his leg, and our itty bitty new baby who was connected to these huge machines. I was so positive in the hospital, but that day when we got home it all hit me at once. I was an emotional wreck as I hid in my room, under my sheets, so no one could see how torn apart I really was. I wanted to stay strong for both my boys. So I let myself cry under those sheets as I questioned everything about our future. I hated not knowing if everything was going to be ok. As a new pregnant women, I had all these images in my head of what our perfect little life was going to be like. I was going to have all the right gear, his nursery was going to be completely finished and adorable when we got home from the hospital, I was going to have everything I thought I needed, and would just be so crazy prepared it would be a breeze! So when that was all taken away from me and I was completely not prepared, my nursery was horrifically unfinished (still is...oops!) and besides a 3 month supply of diapers I had stocked up on and a diaper gene I would never use, I basically had nothing I actually needed, so the panic set it. I just couldn't believe how this could all happen to us so quickly and so unexpectedly. My perfect birth plan was snatched away from me.

I couldn't see the future as I laid in that bed crying, but if I could have, I wouldn't have believed how amazing it was. We are so incredibly blessed it doesn't seem real. My husband can do most everything he use to (He has a slight robot walk but that just makes him even more sexy) and my itty bitty baby has grown into such a big boy! His laugh is constant and he's just such a happy and good boy that I still can't believe it! Our life is beautifully different than I had imagined, and absolutely a million times more wonderful than I could have every hoped for.

If I can leave you beautiful souls who are reading this with a message, it would be to "just keep swimming." I'm pretty sure none of us have a crystal ball, but I know that whatever you might be going through at this moment that makes you think you can't possible pull through, you can. Keep your head up and think positively. The only way to keep sane through this harsh world is to keep your spirits up and put a smile on your face.

I hope I didn't bore you with my emotional jibber jabber, but if I did, then just take a look at this beautiful little boy to entertain you a bit!